Jessica

Highlights of 2011

2012-01-01T20:24:00.003+08:00

1. Went Hong Kong with friends during March

2. Went Phuket with Bf to celebrate my 21st

3. Celebrated my 21st with family and relatives

4. Another year with C.G

5. Celebrated my 21st with friends

6. Celebrated Carene's 21st

7. Celebrated National day with C.G

8. Celebrated Aster's 21st

9. Celebrated Cass's 21st

10. Bought an instant camera

11. Celebrated Li Bing's 21st

12. Celebrated Mau's 21st

13. Attended my company's annual dinner

14. Bought a PINK luggage

15. Celebrated Christmas with C.G

16. Bought Iphone 4s with jiji bear cover

Missing for so long...

2011-10-16T14:50:00.002+08:00

It has been so long since I typed anything here but I'm not gotta write an essay about what is happening or has happened in my life so far.

Started working at the end of August and I have worked there for 1 month plus, almost 2. So far so work as my colleagues are friendly and nice people. Started my degree course for HRM on last Thursday but classmates are not friendly at all. I'm in my own world in class but I hate the fact that we have to form groups for tutorial to discuss stuff. I hope things will be better in class or I will just befriend some other people. Everyone seems old in my class and it's difficult to communicate with them, different age gaps have different things to talk about.

I'm so busy now that I feel so tired every single day. I just wish 2 years will pass quickly.

21st with friends

2011-08-21T23:08:00.004+08:00

I've almost forgotten that I had this set of photos in Flickr. It's my 21st with my friends!

Booked a room in Grand Park City Hall because it was the cheapest at that point of time. Viewed many others before deciding on this. It wasn't that big but good enough since I don't really have much friends.

Brought a ice wine for everyone to drink, it was a very small bottle but costed a lot!

Bought bombay sapphire as well but it tasted too strong, didn't like it.

Bf and I went to check into the room first before heading out to buy snacks and drinks. Bought myself balloons too. Met CG at the hotel lobby when we bought everything and started decorating the room.

We spent hours sewing the "Jessica" cloth thingy.

See the amount of tape! But it wasn't sticky and couldn't hold the weight and it dropped after awhile.

My birthday present from CG, love it!

We played monopoly deal and pictionary after decorating the room and before heading out for dinner. I totally forgot to bring any games but luckily they brought.

Snacks we munched on while playing games. Irshad bought them and I seriously think the first time I bought it, it was spoiled or they cooked wrongly because the taste was HORRIBLE. But it tasted good the second time I tried them.

Close-up on my balloons :)

I can't believe that was the only group photo we took that day! I totally forgot to take any group photos, so sad!

Dinner was at Australian Outback. Bf and I ordered the same drink even though we didn't sat next to each other.

Yummy free bread. Shouldn't eat too much or else you will be too full for your main course.

The real onion rings!

You will get sick of the onion rings if you eat too much. I still prefer Burger King onion rings.

Jeremy ordered pasta because he was craving for it.

Ordered some chicken because I didn't want to have the burger again. Had the burger a few weeks back. A few of us ordered the same thing.

Bf ordered ribs but I didn't like them because there was not much meat and it was expensive.

Irshad ordered beef steak.

One of the waitress cleared our table but dropped a whole bowl of sauce behind Jeremy. But the sauce didn't even touch him at all, luckily I placed my bag behind me or else my clothes will get the sauce. The waitress just walked away and I think Bf was angry. He told another staff that the waitress dropped the sauce and did nothing about it. Nothing much to be done anyway since the sauce already landed on my bag. Ultra suay that day because I broke my perfume in the day and the sauce landed on my bag!

After dinner, we went to buy some hooks to hook my decoration. Wen Jie was so full and sleepy that he hide under the table to nap.

After slacking awhile and me preparing the cocktail (no one appreciated it), we prepared to cut the cake.

Is my cake pretty? Googled online for a nice crown photo to make this cake. Discussed with cass during work that time because I was too bored. Ordered the cake from a blogger. It looked too pretty to be eaten. I ordered a strawberry flavoured with rainbow interior cake!

While Cass and Carene went to borrow lighter, the guys did their usual thing.

Everyone happily singing birthday song to me.

Ta-ta, pretty?

It did not tasted as good as what other people said. I didn't like my cake to be mushy mushy, it was a little wet.

Everyone had a huge portion of the cake because the cake was huge.

Irshad bought me a candy floss maker. Should have opened it up while the rest have not gone home yet so we can make candy floss together.

That marks the end of my 21st celebration!

Hong Kong Day 4 (9 March 2011)

2011-08-20T20:02:00.013+08:00

Hello! I'm back to finish up what I'm supposed to post up yesterday.

Day 4

It's a day of adventure and fantasy.

Yes! We went to Disney Land! Although I went before, but I was still excited about it.

The handle of the train to Disneyland. It's a mickey.

Weather wasn't that sunny but good.

Welcome to Disneyland people!

Mickey was surfing.

Our cute tickets for admission. I think I took the mickey one.

Enter a world of fantasy!

Here we went to a magically Disneyland.

Even though the place wasn't really that huge, but we managed to spend our whole day there. The Disneyland closed at 8pm which was too early for a theme park. But Universal Studio is SG is even worst, closes at 6pm!

Went into this souvenir store and I love it. Everything was so cute and pretty. Bought a minnie hairband to wear around the whole Disneyland.

You can see my minnie hairband from my reflection.

Ta-ta! They had other kinds of minnie hairbands but I chose the most original one.

Wen Jie bought a cap and so we must take a photo to show off.

Li Bing liked the blue door.

Bf and I. Irshad tried to be in the photo but was blocked by Bf elephant ear.

Can you see the castle at the far end?

Went into another souvenir store where they sell glass decorations. So pretty.

The castle! The fireworks at night will be on top of the castle, pretty. But stupid me accidentally deleted the videos I took during Hong Kong trip, ultra sad. Laser show and fireworks all gone :(

Next, we went to the adventure land. Nothing much here expect a tarzan's house and to see fake animals on the boat.

Another souvenir store. Awesome because they have so many different kind of souvenir stores selling different things.

After the boring tarzan's house, we waited for the boat to see fake animals. Li bing's friends came and took the same boat as us. Took the tram to the peak and boat to see fake animals with ah hei! Fuck them, why must they keep surrounding us? Disgusting ttm.

Next, we went to watch the 4D mickey show. I watched before so I can still remember part of it.

After the 4D show, I wanted to take the "turning wooden horse" in chinese. My favourite!

Next up, we went to queue for pooh bear's ride. It's short and boring because I took it before as well.

The honey pot we were supposed to take.

Nothing much at the tomorrow land.

Dirty pond with 7 dwarfs.

Next, we went to this "science" place and took a roller coaster. Not very scary but it kept turning and turning. Luckily I didn't felt like vomiting after taking the ride.

Watched another mickey show but it's exactly the same as the last one I watched. Bf looked so cute here with my minnie hairband :)

Wen Jie bought the stitch hand gloves while Irshad bought the buzz lightyear hand gloves. We also made a lot of coins with different cartoon characters on them.

It was night time and we were waiting for the fireworks to start. Video got deleted by stupid me :(

But the castle looked very pretty.

Bye Bye Disneyland, I'll visit you soon again!

That's all for day 4 in Hong Kong, a day full of magically.

JB with friends

2011-08-17T19:29:00.002+08:00

Went JB with Cass, Carene and Li Bing just now from morning till early evening. We went to the shopping centre nearest to the custom and spent half a day there. Luckily we came back early, if not later human and traffic jam.

Change about SGD61 to MYR150 but I found extra MYR100 in my pouch at home. We had sushi king for lunch, not very nice but cheap. I used up all my money and bought quite a number of things. I am so tired after walking so much today, I can feel my backbone hurting. But much better now since I'm sitting and resting at home.

I gotten myself a pair of comfy and cheap shoe, one pretty dress, one shorts, 3 shirts and snacks (a big packet of tapioca chips only for MYR8 for mom, super cheap!). I also gotten my mom a hairband because she said she need one for D&D this sat, if she don't like it, it'll be mine.

Side note, my ex-colleague received the parcel I sent out yesterday using registered postage. Damn fast, I thought it'll arrive 2 days later but they took only a day. The present reached too early because her birthday is on the 18th.

Hong Kong Day 3 (8 March 2011)

2011-08-14T00:05:00.002+08:00

Day 3

Met up with my aunt living in HK for dim sum lunch. Food was really good and the restaurant is very posh.

Cute little tea pots.

Everyone loved the yum bao because it's flowing yam bao! Too bad they didn't have custard flowing bao.

Walked around the shopping centre we had lunch at. It's very huge but things wasn't that cheap.

Passed by this place that sells fries and we bought some.

Keng Siang was very happy cause he bought a new shoes.

My aunt.

We kept eating non-stop!

Walked around some more before heading to this dessert place. I think it's opened by Jackie Chan. Desserts were so-so only.

I wanted to have red bean soup as well as the papaya soup, so Wen Jie shared them with me :)

The papaya one was great! I love having soup and dessert made from papaya but I don't just eat the papaya because I'll get stomachache.

Guess what is this?

And this?

Whole pot of tang yuan, not very nice.

One huge pot of bean curb. From young till now, I love eating bean curb because it's so smooth and yummy. This was very smooth, not like those in SG.

After having the dessert, bid goodbye to my aunt and we went to watch the laser show at 8pm. It was very cold and windy near the sea. I only had half a face and bing's hair was messy in this photo.

Much better photo :)

I really like that building with the rainbow lightings.

Walked on the bridge and was many handprints of famous people.

Bruce Lee is dead thus there's no handprint.

He looked really like the PIG!

Bruce Lee wanna be number 1.

Bruce Lee wanna be number 2.

Went to have supper at this place and food wasn't that nice as what we had before. Mine was alright because it was just instant noodles, and how can instant noodles go wrong.

My shopping stuff. Bought a mc-dull so I can bring it along for my graduation. It's a graduation mc-dull! I came home and realised I had a keychain version of the graduation mc-dull.

Hong Kong Day 2 (7 March 2011)

2011-08-08T22:36:00.004+08:00

Realised I didn't blog about Hong Kong Day 2 - 5 at all! Not to worry, I'll now do it but I might have forgotten the most of the details.

Side note, I added an arrow at the bottom of the page to click to older posts.

Day 2

Went to a posh restaurant for breakfast, it was already crowded by the time we went there. Forgot what time we woke up for breakfast but it was quite early.

See how huge the lights were!

I shall present you some, I repeat, SOME dim sum that we ordered. Disgusting yellow colour food because the lightings were bad despite the huge ceiling lights.

The tall "building" of dim sum we ordered.

My favourite, flowing custard egg yolk bun! East Ocean restaurant serves them too but dining there is expensive.

Happily eating breakfast :)

Next up, Ocean Theme Park.

I went there for 3 times I guess but it was still better SG Escape theme park.

Hello Ocean Park!

It was a sunny day, good day for theme parks.

Saw the mini stuff near the edge of the mountain?

It's the cable car from super super far view.

Pretty rainbow walls and a stupid ugly face.

Mr Seal, the mascot of Ocean Park.

Went into the aquarium, it was so much better than Underwater world!

There were many cheena people though and it was so noisy, dislike!

Photos will never clear if you took them in a aquarium.

Just keep swimming, just keep swimming, just keep swimming swimming.

The "green" shark, bet you never heard of them because I created them :)

Pretty colourful "hot-air" balloons around the theme park.

After the aquarium, we came to this panda place. They are the cutest bears ever!

Pandas were sleeping and hiding away from us.

We walked to this place whereby there were more pandas.

Saw this fake looking panda and took a photo with him. It was Irshad's twin brother.

Fishy place but nothing much there.

The cable car display.

And yes, we took the cable car after seeing the boring fishes. I remembered I had to queue super long for the cable car the previous time I visited HK, but there wasn't even a queue at that time.

Irshad is very afraid of heights and he gave this face when we just stepped into the cable car.

Here we go!

The scenery was beautiful on the way up to another part of Ocean Park.

See how high we went.

Not high enough.

Higher.

And higher.

Reached the top and saw this beautiful scenery, perfect for a photo.

Had chicken wings and fries for lunch, it wasn't that great.

Fries with drink at the bottom.

It was supposed to be rainbow candy floss but it turned out to be purple only, lousy. But they were still happy with it.

Cute little fishy but we didn't managed to win any back.

Played some games trying to win something but we failed. Got some little gifts as we bought the package for the games.

Next, the dolphin show. Way much better than the stupid dolphin show in SG.

See the amount of people there! It was very sunny that day, a lot of people opened their umbrellas but were told to keep them when the show starts.

After the dolphin show, we went into this jelly fish aquarium. It was beautiful but photos are like shit.

Much better photo of the jellyfish.

After seeing the jelly fish, the guys went to queue for the mine train roller coaster ride. Li Bing and I didn't want to try it because we don't want to have our hearts flying out.

But Li Bing and I still took the water log ride. It wasn't as scary as the previous time I took it, no idea why.

Goodbye Ocean Park!

After almost the whole afternoon at the Ocean Park, we went to the peak.

We took a tram up to the peak. While waiting for the tram, lots of Li bing's best friends came. The whole tram was filled with them, OMG!

Cast the ugly truth that we took a tram filled with ah hei people aside, we had dinner at Bubba Gump and food was great maybe because we were hungry.

We had lighting cups that we can bring them home!

Delicious yummy prawns, I'm hungry now.

Don't know why the photo of the beef looked bad.

After having a very filling dinner, we went up to the peak. It's actually at the top of the building we went.

It was freezing cold up there and the guys were only wearing shorts. Luckily Li Bing and I bought leggings to wear at the start of the day, but it was still very cold! Irshad refused to wear his jacket at the peak because he wanted to test if he can take the cold or not.

We tried putting our heads out of the building and a strong cold wind just kept blowing at our faces if we continued to do so.

After awhile, the mist was covering our visions to the scenery.

And soon, we cannot see anything at all.

Shopping lots of the day.

Will continue day 3.

Phuket Day 1 & 2 (13 & 14 July 2011)

2011-08-04T01:15:00.013+08:00

Day 1

Booked the flight at 9 plus am so we wouldn't waste half a day. Slept for like 2 hours before preparing and heading to the airport. Took a cab there because I wanted to have Burger King breakfast. We couldn't find Burger King at first and walked almost the whole departure area before finding it. It wasn't as good as the previous time I had it.

The plane we took. I was so afraid it will crash or something because I watched Air Crash Investigations a few days before flying.

While waiting for the plane to fly, it was a sunny day.

Side note, I had a sweet in my mouth hence the bigger/fatter face. I know I'm getting fatter but I'm trying to eat healthier now, like thunder tea rice!

Flight was about an hour 50 mins I guess. Reached there and everything was fine until when we were paying for the cab. I actually forgot to bring the SDGD400 (9000 plus thai bath)!!! I always thought the money was with bf and I only brought SGD200 (4000 plus thai bath) over! Found an atm in the airport where we can withdraw some cash. I was super upset over this and kept worrying that we don't have enough to spend. Terrible to have not enough cash during holiday!

Anyway, reached the hotel after a long long ride. Initially I booked Sugar Palm Resort but they told us that our room had some problem so they offered to transfer us to Sugar Grand Hillside which was suppose to be a 4 star resort and a better resort than ours. We took it anyway because we had no choice.

The room looked old and dirty. Ants were crawling on one side of the wall.

View looked not bad.

Looked old and dirty as well.

They provided us with mac to use but the internet connection sucks big time. It took me more than 5 freaking minutes to load one damn page and sometimes it wouldn't even load!!!

Weather was bad, sun was nowhere to be seen.

As the sun was hiding from us, we decided to travel to Patong Beach for Jungceylon shopping centre. Cab fare were very expensive and I knew we can bargain but it seems almost impossible because they had the list of prices with them.

Went to this chinese-thai restaurant for lunch. There were many people inside and we thought the food were nice but we're wrong. It's not nice at all. My stupid dumpling soup only had 3 dumplings only! The thai ice milk tea was not bad though but filled of ice. Didn't bothered to take photos of the food because they sucks.

The shopping centre wasn't really that interesting and I bought nothing actually. Bought only snacks to munch on while watching Harry Potter. The place we had dinner was awesome because the food was very nice! The drink was so-so only but food was great.

It seems expensive but we spent about SGD50 plus only. If we were to eat those in Singapore, it'll definitely cost more than SGD50.

It rained for almost the whole day, sad.

Pineapple fried rice, it could be the best I've ever eaten! It's not those fake yellow colour like what most Thai restaurant provide. Those in Singapore tasted weird too.

Free soup and it tasted great too.

Prawns were great but not to my liking. I like those fresh prawns dipped in soya sauce, only had those in Hong Kong.

This omelette was seriously the best of all I had eaten, but a little too oily.

Fish wasn't that nice though, too dry.

See the bones of the poor fish.

And all gone.

Wanted to have mango sticky rice but it was sold out. This dessert was delicious though, there was sticky rice inside.

Guess what is this?

Yes, a tu-tu. Took a tu-tu back to hotel after dinner.

Did nothing much at night, only watched tv and Harry Potter part 1.

Day 2

Got woken up by the phone ringing, it was the Phi Phi island tour person, informing us that the tour is cancelled because of bad weather on day 3, which is 15 July. I was quite upset when I heard this news because I was looking forward to this tour.

Woke up about 11 plus and missed breakfast. Weather wasn't really that good at nice but became sunny after I said my wish was to have the sun shine brightly and dark clouds to go away. My wish didn't work after awhile but still, I got tan.

Didn't gave up and tried to book another tour with the hotel after going to the beach. At first we booked successfully but later, the guy called us and said all tours will be cancelled. Ultra sad!

Saw someone having coconut juice and I also wanted. Pardon me that I looked like SHIT in this photo and focus on the coconut.

Went back to swim and you can see in the photo, dark clouds were all over the sky.

Someone died in the pool.

Wanted to swim awhile but bf jumped into the pool, looked underwater and saw that the pool was very dirty and decided not to swim. It was indeed dirty, what a 4 star resort.

There were always 4 - 5 waves crashing at a time and they were strong. I didn't dare to go too deep or else I would've been covered by the waves.

View from the restaurant we had dinner at. It was cold because of the bad weather.

The restaurant was quite empty.

Ordered some cocktails that were served in pineapple and coconut so of course, we took photos with them.

My coconut cocktail was not bad.

Pineapple

Coconut

And together.

First dish was a seafood pizza. It tasted a little fishy but we ate all up because we were too hungry.

Grilled salmon, I love salmon.

Tiger prawns, one each. I still preferred fresh prawns with soya sauce.

Grilled chicken I guess but it was horrible! Meat was dry and tough.

We had free salad but it was just green vegetables, plain and tasteless. Didn't like the sauces.

Finally we had mango sticky rice. I think we only like the sticky rice, mango is too common.

After dinner, we walked around the street near our hotel. Nothing much and nothing for me to shop.

Saw this shop on the floor making customised friendship band. Made for C.G but they needed about an hour to finish, so we went to have more dessert and drinks.

Many people were in this restaurant and we ordered blue berry cheesecake, it was good.

Drinks were not very nice, seems too strong because it was quite bitter. Took so long to drink half of it.

Stole the flower from my drink.

Gay shot number 1.

Gay shot number 2.

Was just chilling at our seats and this little boy came with roses. Of course we bought one because it's my birthday and birthday girl must have some flowers.

Gay shot number 3.

Pretty pink roses :)

The customised friendship band. Chose their most favourite colour for them.

Day 2 ended with us watching Harry Potter again.

Day 3 to be continued.

Happy 21st to me!

2011-07-31T00:32:00.006+08:00

Happy 21st to myself, though it's quite late already!

Had a mini birthday celebration with family and relatives at Durty Nellys Irish Pub on the 9th July afternoon. Place was cozy and very little people because not much people will go to a pub for lunch.

My mom's cousin bought "me" balloons as props for photo taking session. You can see the balloons in almost all the photos! Dragged bf along for my birthday celebration and I think he got bored. I'll be super scared if I was to meet his parents and relatives. To be honest, I have not met his family yet!

Received almost all ang baos for presents.

My mom's cousin that's staying in Hong Kong. Bf loves HK because of all the good food there.

My mom's cousin that came back from Amsterdam. Visited Amsterdam twice and for the 1st time, I was so sick there, I nearly died! Second time was much better because it wasn't really that cold yet.

Baby Amelia is so cute!

My aunt, aunt's husband and cousin. Used to often go their house in the past after church to play. Dad and grandparents will be playing mahjong and we'll be playing hide and seek, ps3 and stuff that kids played. It's really really fun and happy in the past.

Poor bf seems so bored and lonely!

Parents and sis. The short family!

Love my pretty dress that day, it's pink dress with white polka dots!

Pretty colourful balloons, though I don't really like minni mouse.

Mom prepared door gifts for guests and so I have to give them out.

Mom's aunt that cooks really awesome food!

My mom's cousin that came back from Amsterdam gave me a custom-made birthday card!

The door gift, bf's one is still at my house.

It's FOOD time! Didn't try the salad because I have some different type of salad with my main course, wasn't nice of course. Should have tried some salad because it looked nice!

My main course was the first to arrive. It turned cold when I ate it because I was busy taking photos of other people's food. Wasn't really nice when I had it. Ham and cheese sandwich, as usual, I gave my egg to bf because I dislike eating egg nowadays.

My cousin with "rotten" nose and legs. How sweet, she gave me a bouquet of roses, a balloon and ang bao, even bf didn't gave me any flowers!

Forgot what was this, seems pretty good.

I think it's grilled salmon here, I love salmon, raw or cook.

Beef steak, I like beef steak too. But I don't eat too raw because I dislike tasting the blood taste.

This is roasted beef I guess, looks yummy.

My aunt brought special ingredient for lunch, it's the red chilli! Wouldn't it tasted weird with western food?

Poor bf got bored and decided to build the building.

Bf had this but I forgot what was it. He said it wasn't really that nice.

Very obvious to what this was isn't it?

Dad had curry but it's weird that a western place served Indian food.

Mini sausages, I wondered if it'll be full enough.

Ang bao again from mom's cousin.

Don't baby titus looked like Zhen Guo Cheng?

My awesome panda birthday cake! Saw it from emicake and I just had to order it!

"My fist is hunger for justice".

Photo taking session again with the cake. Awkward because I have to keep smiling for photos. Don't know why this photo seems grainy.

My dad was suggesting for both bf and I to hold the knife together but it seems like a wedding, so I forbid him to touch the knife :)

Wanted to book a chalet for my celebration with family and relatives but it was too last minute and every chalet was fully booked. Better plan my celebration in advance next time. Next big day will be 30th birthday I guess.

Come to think of it, I'm an adult now but that doesn't mean I have to get myself drunk and party like shit. I don't think I'll ever let myself get drunk because I don't want to get hangover and puke everywhere. The feeling of wanting to puke is horrible because I always felt it when I'm not feeling well. I also dislike the feeling of dizziness because it's like I'm going to faint anytime. Will cherish being 21 because soon enough, I'll be 22, 23, 24 and so on.

Will blog about my Phuket trip soon.

My thoughts

2011-07-23T02:54:00.002+08:00

Pardon me for being lazy to blog about my birthday celebration, been too lazy/busy to do it.

It's weird that I don't really miss bf that much like after our first year together. I don't even feel that I have to meet him sometimes but he's already part of my life. I'll still think of him all the time but not the urge to meet him everyday. I know he'll always be there for me and I have someone to count on. He's like my family member. They'll be there for me but it's not nesscessary I have to see

2011-07-18T23:28:00.005+08:00

This 21st Birthday isn't really what I expected it to be and bad things kept happening to me.

Firstly, I always thought the Thai Bath (SGD400) was with Bf and I only brought the SGD200 to Phuket. I kept worrying how much money we left.

Secondly, weather was terrible at Phuket. Rain, rain and rain. Book Phi Phi Island tour and was cancelled because of bad weather. Book Coral Island tour from hotel and was later told that all tours cancelled because of bad weather. So we tried our luck by booking a tour outside after having dinner. The person said no matter what weather, the tour will still go on. Went for the tour and it was raining the whole day, super scary to be snorkelling with huge waves crashing down on me. I nearly puke because the waves were very huge and it was freezing cold during the whole tour.

Thirdly, I broke my perfume while trying to spray the hotel room. Maybe more bad things will happen to me.

And I get annoyed when Bf takes his own sweet time in the toilet, don't know doing what and do things half way.

21st birthday cake

2011-07-11T00:24:00.001+08:00

Sneak preview of next post.

I'm back!

2011-07-11T00:06:00.004+08:00

I decided to be back because I don't really blog much in tumblr, just reblogging and reblogging awesome things. I feel the need to perhaps blog about events and things happening around me.

As usual, deleted useless posts from the past.

A brand new blog, a brand new me.

我爱你

2010-04-10T01:05:00.006+08:00

我很开心也很辛福。
我愿本以为自己不能在找到辛福了, 不过缘份让我找到了自己最想要的。
我总是以为我们不可能在一起, 一定是自己一向情愿, 但事情不是这样子。
无论我说或做任何事使他不开心, 他仍然相信我们这段感情。
他是这么这么的好, 也这么这么的爱我。
我已有了自己的最爱, 我真的真的很开心。
我会好好的珍惜你, 也好好的爱你。
谢谢你给我的爱。

Spent a long time typing chinese words out cause my chinese simply sucks. I have actually used a online chinese dictionary to complete this post, so you can tell how bad my chinese can be. But however, whatever I want to say seems better in chinese, or perhaps not. Baby, I am sorry for always keeping quiet when I am upset and for making you upset because of me. I believe you but give me time to believe myself.

our love story

2010-02-20T23:28:00.000+08:00

Our love story, it started unexpectedly. We first met at our work place that time. I was already a staff there for quite sometime, while he just came from other location as a manager. It was during the end of 2008 when we first met. I used to dislike new managers that just came as I preferred the old ones. So I don't really like him or talk to him much.

I was still in love with another staff there at the time he came. But things did not work out so it ended very fast. I was asked to join for supper that my love started. I was sort of the supper gang member as I'll join them most of the time. However, I did not developed any feelings for him yet. In fact, I was with someone else that was also working there at that time. I have no idea how we started but as both of us just broke up, we understand how each other feel. As time passed, we got closer and got together eventually. This relationship did not last as well. Most of the time, I was left to face all the unhappy things myself. When my day was bright and happy, it will always turned into a stupid day for me. Not that I was angry or whatsoever that made my day sucks.

One fine night after supper, I took cab with him to go home and he told me that both my past and me might not work as we started with an unhappy past. I did not heed his advise and continue with that relationship. Indeed, it was a painful experience for me. I felt that others pitied me because of this. My past stopped me from going Bintan last year but I did not listen. I went ahead with the rest to Bintan. It was when I know I can be happy and cheerful as well. I don't need to take all the nonsense that was given to me. We were on the verge of breaking even before I went Bintan. I ended everything as I did not want to drag the unhappiness anymore.

I did not know exactly when I started admiring him. Perhaps it started during the Bintan trip. I kept wondering to myself that it will be very nice if I have a BF like him. I used to admire everything he does. But I broke up with my past wasn't because I admired him. I know it was impossible to get together as it was my wish thinking only. I enjoyed my few months being single again and I am happy. However, I slowly started to fall for him. I like going out with them as I'll get to see him. But still, I make myself believe that nothing will happen between us.

But I did not know why I started disturbing him. I enjoyed disturbing him a lot. I read about my horoscope from some one's blog and found out that if I started liking someone, I'll want to stick to him or perhaps disturb him for the whole day. It was somehow very true. I did not feel shy when I'm with him plus the rest. Slowly, things started to change and I thought no one will ever know I'm liking him. But he knew and he was the only one that knew. We started talking more and even just talking rubbish. Everyday when I go work, I'll be happy cause I get to see him.

One fine day, as usual we're just talking normally and he suddenly started asking me some weird questions. That was the day I found out that he actually likes me as well. Everything seems so real yet fake. I thought I was dreaming for the next few days. Him liking me is so impossible so I couldn't pull myself back to reality. But he was transferred to another location soon after that. I no longer have the chance to work with him.

Now that we no longer work together, but he will always make an effort to meet me. It is the first time I felt I really love someone. He is always there to make me believe we're real and he really love me. He always assure me that I'll be the most happiest girl with him. I am always moody and having pms all the time but he did not leave me instead, he tried all his means to cheer me up and make sure I am alright.

I am afraid, afraid that one day things between us might change. But I should have faith in him as well as myself. With him, I will not be afraid.

I started writing this post on the 9Th February but posting out today cause I finally finished writing. However, this might not be everything cause I might forget some details. Sweetheart, thank you for everything and for loving me :)